ings in which I am helpless; and, oh Dicky, you would never believe how many they are! And the awful, awful dark–a black curtain always in front of you, sometimes seeming hard and firm, like a wall of coal, within an inch of your face; sometimes sinking away into soft depths of blackness–miles and miles of distant, silent, horrible darkness; until you feel you must fall forward into it and be submerged and overwhelmed. And out of that darkness come voices. And if they speak loudly, they hit you like tapping hammers; and if they murmur indistinctly, they madden you because you can’t SEE what is causing it. You can’t see that they are holding pins in their mouths, and that therefore they are mumbling; or that they are half under the bed, trying to get out something which has rolled there, and therefore the voice seems to come from somewhere beneath the earth. And, because you cannot see these things to account for it, the variableness of sound torments you. Ah!–and the waking in the morning to the same blackness as you have had all night! I have experienced it just once,–I began my darkness before dinner last night,–and I assure you, Deryck, I dread to-morrow morning. Think what it must be to wake to that always,custom usb, with no prospect of ever again seeing the sunlight! And then the meals–”
“What! You keep it on?” The doctor’s voice sounded rather strained.
“Of course,” said Jane. “And you cannot imagine the humiliation of following your food all round the plate, and then finding it on the table-cloth; of being quite sure there was a last bit somewhere, and when you had given up the search and gone on to another course, discovering it, eventually, in your lap. I do not wonder my poor boy would not let me come to his meals. But after this I believe he will, and I shall know exactly how to help him and how to arrange so that very soon he will have no difficulty. Oh, Dicky,custom usb flash drives, I had to do it,custom usb drives! There was no other way.”
“Yes,” said the doctor quietly, “you had to do it.” And Jane in her blindness could not see the working of his face, as he added below his breath: “You being YOU, dear, there was no other way.”
“Ah, how glad I am you realise the necessity, Deryck! I had so feared you might think it useless or foolish. And it was now or never; because I trust–if he forgives me–this will be the only week-end I shall ever have to spend away from him. Boy, do you think he will forgive me?”
It was fortunate Jane was blind: The doctor swallowed a word, then